Right. As far as I can tell, I am, as of 5 minutes ago, not in posession of any porn whatsoever. I do not care what withdrawal symptoms I get. I do not want to live a secret double life anymore. I do not want to go into my 40s (next January) with a PMO habit. I do not want to spend any more sunny afternoons sitting with the blinds closed while the world passes by. I do not want to spend the rest of my life feeling uneasy around women because I am trying to avoid staring at their breasts or mentally undressing them. Whatever happens, it can't be worse than the above. I have to accept the fact that there will be pain frustration and temptation. I cannot guarantee I won't relapse but I just have to find a way. I will start posting in the journal section as of today.
Hey Enougth Great move. becuse without commitment its too easy to allow a foothold for the mind to slide back into old habits. I tried quitting porn and jacking off last month but u kept a secret stash of porn just in case i decided NoFap didn't work out I didn't use it just kept it in case. I guess you know where the stories going I managed 11 days got stressed over something and hit the stash. Then I had to sit and review what did i want out of my life and the simple answer is I didn't want Porn in my life I took the step to reformat my drive so I been journeying on for 13 day's having avoided porn and jacking. Yeah I wish I could a sure you that its been a cake walk but i wont insult your intelligence by lying to you. There's been some struggles but not having the easy access to crap put a step into the process and allows just a enough time to stop and ask myself what the heck an I doing and do I really want to go back there. Sorry I waffling on about stuff you probably know just wanted to encourage you as you walk the road. Joe.
Yes, I was keeping some back as well and managed to keep it for a few days without looking at it. But I learned from other people's posts that I was just making excuses to myself.
Good on ya, mate! This is the right decision. Time to man up. Men don't masturbate. You're gonna be 40!