Realized that this cycle of PMO has turned into a world of trouble when it began moving off of the computer/phone and into real life encounters full of nothing but selfishness, anxiety and that never ending need to feed a hunger that started at such an early age. Looking for connection and passion but instead just finding desperation and insatiable lust. I am terrified at how this has gone out of control but looking forward to finding out who I am without this chronic monkey on my back.