Hello

Hello people,

Greetings!
For a while I had thought that I am the doomed one with cyber sex addiction, ED due to this. I've been reading posts here and I feel glad I got so many people like me who are trying to win.

I did get addicted to porn in my late teens where in I had to watch it everyday. But it actually didn't affect my normal existence but was a constant.
Around 2005 I was introduced to cyber sex on Yahoo by a friend. Slowly it took over, I had a GF in a long distance relationship who eventually became my wife but I did it in the background. My sexual life was fantastic with her as I could I have an erection for a long time and could do more than once. Since I was married and we were living together, cyber sex was rare but would happen in a flash when I was left alone at home.

Sadly she passed away a few years later due to a heart attack. I became a raging alcoholic and cyber sex became my saviour.

I created and still have fake profiles on pal, spin, to what not. I did date after a couple of years but I was always addicted to cyber sex.

I have met a beautiful loving woman and we have been together for 5 years now. I hope to marry her next year and maybe we would like to try for kids.

Sounds Rosy yea but it's far from it. Since she lives in another city thousands of miles away I am still addicted to cyber sex. In fact more than ever before.

I lost my mom and grandmother whom I was really close to and I turned more into cyber sex.

I do not go out with other women or have the real thing with anyone else but from a awesome sex life in our relationship it has gone to a zero sex life relationship due to my cyber sex induced ED.

I did go on a vacation with a couple of my guy friends recently and did go for a massage and I wanted to have sex but I couldn't stand erect for more than a few minutes.

Off late I'm on chat sites everyday once I'm off work. Mostly sleeping for only 2-4 hours day. I've been up on weekends for 8-12 hours cybering.

What I've realized is that what I used to get satisfied early is not satisfactory now and it is drowning me more deeper.

On the parallel side, off late I've been realizing what productive I could have been and what I could have done to make my 'real' life better than the mess it has been now.

I found that 7 day things interesting. Let me try it, I've failed multiple times before but I don't want to give up.
I will try all of next week and keep you guys posted.

Adios!