I realized last week as I had wrapped up my 15-day PMO streak that it had to be the longest streak of no PMO I've had since I was an early teen…that's 20 years. Yeah, I've gone weeks without porn but not masturbation. So last week was the first in a long time. I can't say I went much longer without (relapsed the next day) but I'm really, really proud of that. Had ups and downs, close calls, but some things written on note cards nearby in situations I knew they'd be handy and just stayed the course for 15 days at least. Really utilized listening and/or playing music as well as lots of exercise (6 miles running has become pretty common). Saw so many of the good things people talk about when on the streak. Definite confidence boost, yes more attention from women (and men)- not necessarily in a sexual but they're just happy to see me it seems, just flat out better socially, more funny, other things too but maybe the best is feeling so genuine like closer to my real self. So, while I need to go longer, I'm happy with some success in this thing I've been trying to deal with over the past 4-5 months or so. Note: I think one of the reasons I did relapse was poor diet one day…had too much pizza and junk food on Labor Day. I tempted myself big time the next day and didn't do it but then the next day (around the same time I was tempted before) relapsed. The pizza and junk food made me tired and frustrated the next day - energy was way down. Then, I think I was so close the one day, I just gave in the next.
