Before starting nofap or abstaining from pmo, i felt weak, unreliable and stupid. My life was a constent running away from responsibilities. Whenever i was stressed, sad, happy, i jerked off. I had no energy i was like a zombie. Being addicted for more than 12 years fucked me up. I remember when my friends said why are you so weak without a personality? Why do you let people bully you? Why do you forget easily? Why do you break promises? Why do you not listen? Why do you take a lot to understand? I ignored them, even though they just wanted to help me. They did not know that i was like this because of porn addiction and neither did I. One day something major happened in my life and i was traumatized. I started picking myself up. Evaluating my habits and interests in life. It was a fight between myself. A battle everyday. I was my worst enemy. I learned to listen, and from listening i learned to understand. I started reading and focusing more in university because i did not want to be stupid anymore. I havent fed my brain anything but porn. You are literally what you eat and what you read, watch and listen to. I kept losing battles over battle with myself and i made it clear to myself(while i looked in the mirror with tears in my eyes) that i wont lose this war! Since then i stopped for 90 days and relapsed. Now i m here 42 days and i haven't felt any better. I feel free and in control. I cant put it in words. Can you explain love? Can you really put the feeling in words? All i can say is its worth it. If i can do it, you can.
that was motivating as hell man congrats. I was a pushover as well for such a long time and for the longest time I wasn't living I just existed. Even when I got my mental health issues in check and started taking my medication I still had trouble being happy and always felt shitty most of the time. I was a big time porn addict and I never seriously thought about quitting because just like any other addict I would deny that porn was the reason that made me feel so shitty. I saw videos on noFap and I figured I would give it a try and now on my 2nd attempt I'm already at day 74. Once I got past the 30 day mark I knew I could keep going and I would have to say this was the best decision I ever made especially after consuming porn for 15 years.
thats amazing. It is good to be stronger than this addiction. Goodluck on your journey bro, do not give up or give in.
Congrats on your streak !! Its amazing that you have made a conscious decision !! We are all here for each other so dont worry!! Let there be light !!
That's really inspiring to read man. I also went for a good stretch with no PMO before recently running into a rough patch. I keep tripping up and I'm getting frustrated. But reading things like your experience remind me that it can be done. Thanks man.