Hi everybody, i'm suffering from hocd since at least one year and half(can't believe i'm still fighting that daemon), but sometimes it gets really strange. Have anybody experienced that sensation when you start staring at men? or like, see a man and think: he's hot!. Or something that might look like you know, attraction? Cause i know it's my hocd speaking but sometimes it looks real, even if not like the attraction i feel to girls! and last question... did anybody get out of that hell? i'm still struggling and you know... never seen the end of it, even if once for a few days i felt out of it...
A little PS. I used to masturbate for four years... to everything porn sites had to offer... so my attraction in that time was kinda of dead... even if i had my most important sentimental engagements in that period of time... so... i wondered if porn twisted my sexuality to the point that i started doubting about something i never doubted of
Hi mate, I'm feeling you. I have the same struggles. When you're focused on checking everyone, than your brain will give you false signals. It's typical H-OCD. You have to ignore it. Stay away from porn for at least 3 months and it will be normal. When you want to talk with me, send me a private message.
Hi, Joereith5, I struggle with the same problem. The thing that help me a lot was to see a therapist, he help me to focus on other things than porn. Because for many HOCD sufferer, porn is the problem, they watch and masturbate too much. So your brain say to you (well if am no longer attracted to woman as I was before, so I am gay). It's normal for the brain when you watch too much porn, that he became less interested in women, because he saw too much so he is tired of that. But that does not mean you are gay. Like a little exemple: You like Big-Mac, so you eat Big-Mac all day, but one day, your body dosen't want Big-Mac anymore. Does that mean you hate Big-Mac now? First of all, if you had attraction to womens before, you are not gay, you might be in a process to discover your bi-sexuality, but you can't be 100% gay. Talk to gay people and they will say to you that they never got hard when they saw or think about a woman. Don't give to much attention about the gay thoughts you have, if you give it attention, you will became more anxious. Same thing about how you saw men, it's just your brain that try to send you false signals to make your HOCD stronger. Also stop testing yourself by looking at women and man to compare your reaction. As I said before, you like womens, so you will always like them, your brain just need a break of porn. HOCD is a shitty thing, but you can beat that!
Thanks for the replies first guys! Well i'm actually going to therapy since one year and it helped me a lot on a lot of undersurface problems. Thing is: we never discussed too much about my obsession, we did it lately and she was kinda surprised it didn't go away and started thinking there could be a possibiility i was attracted to men too(even if i don't feel it). I don't get the logic: if it doesn't go away with therapy then it's because it must be a little true at least, also because when we start talking about my obsession it eventually goes back to my problems with girls so... did any of you beat this goddamn HOCD? If you did, did you have any tricks to help you with? PS: it's in a much lighter form now than it was one year ago where bearing it was impossible, therapy helped a lot, but i really need to expell it from my brain forever. Andd i'm in my 50th day without PMO!!
