okay, so I've been doing On and Off NoFap to get away from HOCD but I can't stop relapsing. regardless of the point, I get HOCD intrusive thoughts a lot. very recently, along with the thoughts, I've noticed there is a strange feeling in my penis that feels like coagulated nervousness or something of the sort, some kind of anxiety. when I calm myself down it goes away, but it still bothers me. like something will come across the screen and the feeling will happen, like an increased weird sensitivity, or maybe some random thought while I'm doing nothing sexual at all. it isn't really a horny feeling at all, but I woke up this morning concerned. see sometimes HOCD worries are exacerbated in my dreams, i was having a dream of the sort and woke up. i wasn't erect at all, but the weird numby feeling was there. I didn't know what to make of it. I tried going back to sleep, but intrusive thoughts kept bothering me. this then reminded me of actual porn. 20 minutes or so later, i went to go watch some porn. now I'm confused. did those thoughts, even though they occur everyday to no avail, turn me on? is that sensation arousal? those are my HOCD worries. Please help
You NEED to stop PMO, it did the same thing for me, I became more and more confused with HOCD after watching porn or masturbate. Don't listen to the feeling you have in your penis. By doing that, you give more power to your HOCD and by giving him more power, more he will invade your life. The feeling you have down there is not arousal, it's just a reaction of your HOCD to keep you in panic mode.
You're all good, go check out my replies to your other thread on the same issue and you'll realize you're not alone. Your future is still in your hands, you can do this!
