Porn makes meditation much harder than neccesary

I find excessive masturbation can kill your senses. Since nothing can match up with the high released from porn. Smells, enjoying nature. I fell very ill about 3-4 days ago, I believe it is correlated to my abstaining for this long from porn. In order for one's brain to change essentially, you need something resembling an earthquake, something that destroys yourself to then build a new person up again. Suffering and pain are inevitable for any significant change in life.