Strange fetish developed from porn

So im 27 years old, ive been watching porn now since I was about 13, just to get straight to the point im at now, I can't stop watching interracial cuckold porn and going on dating sites to try and trick women into humiliating me and trying to get them to tell me they prefer my friend to me (hes black), I can waste hours and hours of my day doing this.

This gives me a lot of anxiety when im in social situtations, and I cant finish or get fully hard if im with a female anymore, I can only finish if im touching myself, which makes me feel not good enough and makes me go straight back to cuckold porn and it feels like a viscous circle. Ive been trying to stop pmo for about 2 years now but I always relapse, so I thought id join here and see if talking about it could help bring me some success.

My end goal is to be able to have sex and not have these thoughts in my head, which have been drilled in from the porn i watch! I will be aiming for 90 days no PMO, usually when I get to around 7 days or so no PMO I struggle with getting to sleep, and I end up doing it just to relax and nod off, so if anyone has any advice it would be greatly appreciated, thank you.

 

Yep, thanks for the reply, thats what im hoping to do this time around.

 

My bad, ive changed the title

 

Thank you, it was an interesting read, I can relate to a lot of what you've said, I am going to keep a journal and write down how I feel and breifly what happens each day of the 90, I'm hoping this will help me stay on track

 

Yeah i think when i first started watching this type of p, i was quite confident in myself, and thought I was confident enough to not let it affect me in everyday life, fast forward to now and i have no confidence with females and constantly think to myself that they would prefer someone else. Im currently on day 5 trying to keep myself distracted and to fight the urges to give in, talking to people on here seems to help.