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Hey man! Your experience sounds fairly similar to mine. I totally get where you're coming from too; one of my Christian friends said something along similar lines when we were talking about it about just choosing do not watch it, but it can be so much harder than that in the moment. Porn definitely has a way of influencing what we think when we see girls in everyday life, and taken further, certain situations start to feel like porn.

One of the huge side effects that I've noticed in myself is the desensitization, just not being able to feel much of anything most of the time unless I was doing PMO. I honestly think that it's been hurting my personality in that way. Anyway, you're in the right place with some great people. Hopefully we can get out of this stupid addiction, good luck bro!

 

What comes up for me is Step one. I did these worksheets a few years ago and they helped me get clarity on the fact that I was addicted to weed and I used them to see that I was addicted to some other things, too.

https://12step.org/docs/Step1_WS.pdf

I was just going through them and I could replace the word drink/drug with PMO.

For example,

Have you ever tried to stop PMO completely? Give examples:

Yes, I tried to stop completely like 10-20 times or more in my life. Maybe 50 times I told myself that was the last time. I got anywhere from 1 hour to 2.5 years and eventually relapsed again. The point is to realize that I am powerless over PMO.

Have you ever tried to limit or control the amount of PMO you used by limiting dosage (for instance, only once a day, only before bed, 30 minutes cumulative a day, etc)?

Yes, I tried a lot of different strategies to control my PMO usage. One was just called "as much as I want". I hoped that by doing unlimited PMO I would eventually just not need to any more. That didn't work. I tried waiting until 5 PM. That didn't work. I tried using a 15 minute timer. That didn't work. Even if something helped me control it for a week or a little while I would eventually give up the "boundary" on it and go off to the races again. There was no long-term control scheme that worked for me.

Give examples of how you tried to limit or control the amount of PMO you used by switching forms of P or M (for instance, switched from straight to women-only P, or switched to a different method of M):

I tried managing the type and content of the P I would watch. For example.

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Only female solo. That didn't work. I went on to other kinds. I tried only POV. That didn't work. I went to other kinds. Okay, as long as I don't watch anal. Well, I watched anal. Okay, as long as its straight P. Okay, I went to CD, gay, trans. Etc. [/quote]

I set all these rules for my P usage but eventually they failed. For example I tried only using printed images not from the computer. Or I tried only listening to female moaning audio on youtube like ASMR and looking at images of clothed women but not going to videos. Well, eventually that broke down and I got myself to videos.

With M, I told myself I would only edge, but ended up going all the way to MO. I told myself I would only do one kind of M but not the other. I ended up doing both at once! Etc.

I tried to minimize the health damage by eating lots of avocadoes, working out really hard, using blue-blocking lenses on my screen... Obviously I could not actually limit the damage I was doing to myself. But I needed to give myself the illusion I was. No amount of anything could counter-act the harm of the PMO time I did.

I was glanching through the rest of them and I might go back and re-word them to apply to PMO and post them somewhere here on nofap. The point of stpe one is to realize I can't control my use of PMO. To realize there is no such thing as "just one" and to realize that I need a power greater than myself which can be as simple as the collective mass of nofap forum to help me stay clean.

 

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I set all these rules for my P usage but eventually they failed. For example I tried only using printed images not from the computer. Or I tried only listening to female moaning audio on youtube like ASMR and looking at images of clothed women but not going to videos. Well, eventually that broke down and I got myself to videos.

With M, I told myself I would only edge, but ended up going all the way to MO. I told myself I would only do one kind of M but not the other. I ended up doing both at once! Etc.

I tried to minimize the health damage by eating lots of avocadoes, working out really hard, using blue-blocking lenses on my screen... Obviously I could not actually limit the damage I was doing to myself. But I needed to give myself the illusion I was. No amount of anything could counter-act the harm of the PMO time I did.

I was glanching through the rest of them and I might go back and re-word them to apply to PMO and post them somewhere here on nofap. The point of stpe one is to realize I can't control my use of PMO. To realize there is no such thing as "just one" and to realize that I need a power greater than myself which can be as simple as the collective mass of nofap forum to help me stay clean.

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Are you struggling still with these problems?Or do you have a streak know?