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Still watch P but don't even like it?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by CrimsnBlade, Aug 3, 2018.

  1. CrimsnBlade

    CrimsnBlade Fapstronaut

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    Has anyone else had this happen? I went 127 days this year and it really did help with how I look at P and understanding my addiction. I've recently found myself falling back into it though, but even if I watch a video or see an image, I don't really enjoy looking at it anymore. It's like my body is just craving the dopamine rush, and that's a quick fix even though it's painful.

    Has anyone else experienced this type of thing?
     
  2. Iwannaquitplz

    Iwannaquitplz Fapstronaut

    I mean, I haven't nearly done a streak as long as you did but yeah, I get that a lot... I would even say I hate it, never finding any videos that are good, believable or even very sexy, you know? Porn is such utter shit and depends on your tastes becoming more perverse.
    I don't understand why my brain still craves it but it defiantly does. I think it's because we used to enjoy it and still clings on to the idea of how good it was. We need to teach our brains that we are better without it but it takes a while.
    Even with a really long streak, the brain tends to remember the kind of things that it really liked ages ago - even if it is actually shit in reality.
     
  3. It's good that it doesn't affect you in the same way it used to.....at least not yet.
    I would urge you to not test or temp yourself. Stay strong and stay away from it.
     
  4. CrimsnBlade

    CrimsnBlade Fapstronaut

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    I am still trying to figure that out to be honest. I can look back and see how good things were. Life was really good. Maybe a combination of stress and a lack of prioritizing what really matters in my everyday life. Basically I got lazy I think, maybe complacent. The most frustrating part is that I was there. I was free for that long. I have to get back, it's just one day at a time.
     
  5. Fix_It_Mate

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    I get what you're saying. I went over 200 days, but I felt frustrated by my lack of progress as a person. So I gradually caved in and ended up watching porn without MO. Took about three binge sessions of this before I could snap out of it.

    I know there's that animal-like urge to find the "perfect video" that causes you to spend hours looking and blurs your judgement. But this time, when I didn't actually release, my mind just felt like complete mush for the next day or two.

    It's not a feeling that I want to experience again, which has acted as a good deterrent, hopefully the last I'll ever need. I was fortunately able to take a break for a few days, away from temptation, which helped set me back on the right track. I'm back to Day 16 again.
     
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  6. Yes I have experienced this. That quick fix that you mentioned pretty much sums it all up. Things will be going smoothly and the next minute you're in the middle of a session. But you're right, it doesn't give me the satisfaction that it once did and I'm quickly turned off to it and back on a streak. I'm hoping that this is a sign that I'm slowly unwiring from porn.
     
  7. Sounds great to me. Find it DISGUSTING! If its not then make it so it is.
     
  8. I too got to the point of watching P and not getting stimulated by it. Then I would think go to some different P.( even more disgusting P) so I decided I wanted real life stimulation and that’s why I joined nofap. I had been allowing O with my wife but now I’ve asked her to give me 90 days without sex with her. I find it is somewhat easier if I don’t get the dopamine boost from even marital sex. I long for a normal,joyous, passionate sex with her in the future. I’m older ,69, so I’m hoping it’s true I won’t need extremely long to reset my brain. Best of luck to you friend.
     

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