So I kinda touched on this in my journal today, but I get the weirdest pleasure when I urinate in places out of the norm. Out behind a bush, behind a dumpster, in a bottle or cup. Sometimes when I'm in the mood, I'll sit in the tub and pee on myself. I get a thrill from this, and I'm not sure if it is because of my years of porn addiction, or if its because of something else. If anyone has similar experiences or insight they can share, I would appreciate the comment.
Gonna say it's probably from your years of porn addiction. Do the 90 day challenge and then find out if you still like it.
Was it in the porn you watched? If so then probably. I suggest use the restroom and don't do it other places unless you must do it. You got this. Keep on pushing don't give up.
It seems there is a correlation between your porn use and your enjoyment of urinating on yourself or unusual places.
I had a feeling as it was. Thanks for your opinion. So do you think it would be considered a relapse or a restart if I acted on this fetish?
Yes, I would. I suppose the best way to keep it under control is to have some boundaries about where you urinate. For example, never in the tub, never on yourself, only in a toilet. It won't be easy, but as the gap lengthens since the last time you did those things, the connections in your brain will weaken. Also, by avoiding these activities it will remove a trigger than might make you want to masturbate or to watch that kind of porn. It is a Classy thing to do, so good luck!