90+ days no PMO but still a ways to go...

I made it to 90+ days of no PMO. That is no P, no M, no O (except that I had one nocturnal emission on night 88 or 89 ).

From days 80 - 90, they seemed to go by so slow. And after day 90 it seems I've forgot about it and time has gone by fast. I'm now at day 101. But over the last few days I've had some trouble with P subs.

It all started when I went swimming, I couldn't help but look at the women in their bathing suits. I wish I would have tried to "eye bounce" or just not went swimming. But it seemed to set me off on a P sub binge, which is not good.

I know I need to be very careful now and hold on to this progress. I do feel like I've broken the habit of PMO in my life but I know how easily I can fall back into it.

The P subs have kind of activated my system and now there is more pressure, urges, fantasies than before. But I believe I can get things back to a lower level if I just try and be careful.

My main goal is to never look at P again and I have met that goal for these 90+ days. I'm really glad that I have not MOed these 90+ days as well and I believe this a huge key to success overall. This is only the beginning and I'll keep fighting on. I still have a ways to go.

Thank you to @Xigwon @namaycush @Shin Iu @bike-wrench @Brahmakumar101 @Arms.R.heavy @en0026 @cleanliving81 @outplan @Sam_ba @Freeman82 @BM0 @montstar84 @Enrique1 @Meshuga @Endless Night @Vivek2.0 @IGY @M4rk @Cooldude4 @FURPY @iHappy @Jodo Kus for helping me on previous posts.

I'll continue writing on my latest journal soon.

EDIT: I also wanted to mention that I probably have not gone without MO for 90+ days in 25+ years, so I'm really glad about that.

 

Thanks @bike-wrench, your comments are very helpful and your current 289 days is inspiring!

Thanks @Freddiefox, yes I really need to be careful going swimming to ignore my surroundings . I've seen some things that affect me. I don't go swimming that often and I haven't gone much at all during these 90+ days. I need to take note of this and remember.

 

I haven't had much time recently to post but

@Xigwon Thanks, yes I can't go back

@ReadyToStop yes fortunately this binge of P subs recently there was no MO and I've been without MO for 113 days now. I agree there are a few different connections that I need to break. I think I've identified what lead to the P sub problem, and a big factor was multiple days swimming and seeing women in bathing suits before the P sub binge. Since then I have seen women while swimming and I've been getting more used to it.

All I know is that I need to hold on to this progress of 113 days now. The last two weeks have gone by quick and have been relatively very easy because I haven't been alone and I haven't been on the computer/internet much.