My story

Okay, i never thought that i will be writing this and seeking for help. I will share with you my story/problem or addiction and i really hope that this will be helpful. I ll try to explain my situation as clear as I can and i expect only truly serious and helpful answers. Let's start. I can't say when everything started. I think i was 13, 14 or 15 years old when i started watching porn and i had my first girlfriend when i was 15 years. At that time i wasn't aware that this will become addiction or big problem in my life or that it was a problem already back then. My first sexual experience was when i was 16 years old. I think that i first started looking for normal porn. Then, i think quickly started watching incest porn of all kinds- mom with son, brother with sister, dad with daughter. I was really turned on when watching incest porn and i wasn't aware how harmful for my health this is. I m good looking and i always had girls and im only interested in girls. Mostly, my sexual experiences are really good and normal but at few occasions, for me very shameful i experienced problems with my erection. I m not sure why that happened but i think my pornography addiction have something with it. In the following years i can t say how often i was watching porn but the porn was always here. I think the longest streak without porn that i ve experienced is 10-20 days. Keep in mind that until now i wasn't aware that this is harmful for my life and that it became an addiction. I continued to watch mostly incest porn and all that time i also had/have sexual encounters with girls. Here comes the most embarrasing part of the story that its really hard for me to admit it and write about it. I also started watching bestiality porn- mostly male dog with girl and horse with girl. I also cant say when that started. But i think it started at the same time with the incest thing or a little after that. I get really sexually excited by the thought of dog fucking a girl. This thing concerns me the most. I think that some period when i was 20-21-22 yrs I tottaly stopped watching porn and i was having really good time with girls. I wasnt still aware that the pornography is addiction and that is really harmful for my mental health. Im now 23 years old and i have a girlfriend. The sex with her is good. But the porn especially bestiality and incest are also here and im desperate. The longest streak before 2 days was 10 days without any masturbation and porn. I was only having sex with my girlfriend. Before 6 months or roughly 1 year i became aware that pornography is addiction and its harmful for the mental health. Then i started to read about pornography addiction which eventually lead me to this site. Furthermore i want to explain you the thing with the bestiality. I dont know why im getting excited by the thought of a girl getting domminated and fucked by a animal-especially dog and horse-i think never another kind of animal. But no matter how hard i try the images of girl getting fucked by a dog is relapsing in my mind and im getting horny which leads me to watch again bestiality porn. There was really critical moments when my behavior was compulsive and i masturbated 4 or 5 times watching bestiality. That was devastating me. My mood wasnt good, i wasnt present at the moment, i was or i am anxious and all because of my pornography addiction and mostly the bestiality and incest thing which concerns me the most. I would add that im studying and working and that im highly successful at those areas. Im also motivated person and with high goals. To summarize the pornography addiction is the biggest problem of my life and is the main reason that in this moment im unhappy and anxious. At this moment the pornography is here especially bestiality/incest but im decisive to fight back. My GF is also here but i have bad feeling that im not good for her and im betraying her. I will end up with few questions for which i want good and direct answers. 1. Am I normal person especially in the context that i masturbate watching bestiality and incest? 2. Does women really get excited by dogs or horses? 3. Can women really enjoy sex with animal? 4. Can the sex with a dog or horse be more pleasent for girls than with a men? 5. How can i get rid of this thoughts and the pornography addiction? I need help. Thank you

 

Thank you a lot man. But i have one question for you. Did you really overcome the bestiality thing and if you did how you managed to do it?

 

2 days without porn or masturbation. I had amazing sex with my ex last night and amazing two times sex with my girlfriend. Ok I know that i shouldnt be cheating but i want to enjoy sex with more than one girl. I wanna ask you something. Does every masturbation is bad? Is normal masturbation without porn, with only vasualization for some girl good or bad? I wanna cut off the porn from my life. My goal is to be without porn because it made me huge bad impact on my life. Thank you guys