I want to have sex again with a sex worker.

I think a good start might be asking yourself what sex means to you and what abstinence from sex means to you. Maybe write out a list of consequences for this behavior. Maybe set goals for what you want the next 5 years of your life to look like. Does having sex with sex workers get you to those goals? Do the consequences scare you? Are you willing to be as honest as possible with yourself and make a change? These are just some suggestions.

 

"I hated it. It was notlike the porn videos I watched"

There's your answer. No real life sex will ever be like a porn video. A porn video is for entertainment, it's to reel you in so that you keep coming back. It's a big business and even though you might not be paying money trust me they are still making a ton of money in that industry. Porn is an escape from everyday life, it is not real. And on top of all this you said you caught an STD. What if next time the STD is not a curable one. I think you should take some time, analyze your life, and come up with your real reason for leaving porn behind and then start working towards that goal.

 

It's grievous sin - you should quit doing it and ask God for forgiveness, adulterer will not inherit the kingdom of God.

 

If you ask your self for real you know that already what you seeking is adventure and that makes you perfect sucker you want to be sugar daddy or something like that really you like to be the addicted of business model how you go about it will be like that – but if this is your think do it.

I am still struggle a lot with urges of this sort despite the many bad experiences I made an been a sucker wasted my good income on the girls – this sounds angry I got attention for my money and it was filling empty place in my soul let me survive so I got my deal no hard feelings to the ladys. I hope I never go back this way about sex but I can not know don’t go next level if you not sure about it it can eat you up if get the hang of it triple speed to P.

 

Hi Druid,
congratulations for your 15 Days without porn. Stay strong my friend nad don't let cravings rule your life. From what you say i believe that your sexual thinking is still strongly connected to impressions strictly connected to porn exposition. From at least 2 years you were building imaginary view on how your sex life should look life according to scenarios you have seen in adult movies. First thing you would have to aknowledge is that, that those were only pictures, there was only one sense involved in this terrible game. Your sense was sight. Porn is equiped with many angles and tricks to show recorded sexual act as arausing as it could be but will never present real view on sex, which is extremely better Then any porn can ever guarante. Porn doesnt take into consideration other senses such as scent, Touch which are The things making having real life sexual experience full and complete. Not taking into consideration senses there is still something that cannot be presented in porn are emotions. Emotions of Love, of liking somebody, on creating with each other bond that cannot be described in words. These bond also cannot be replaced by temporary sex partners who are like toools to just play with. Partner with whom you can share and talk about sex is something beyond tools and picture of sex. Porn often drives us to areas which are not longer ourselves but some creepy leftover from past. I would recomend you to write down all those characteristics of sexual encounter you would like to have and analysing it. Maybe there are things you would have to acknowledge and maybe it will show you your present You whom you have never wanted to be. These analysis have enlightened me about The destructivity of porn and thus I recomend them for you. Try to get to know yourself once again. Cheers! See you on Day 365

 

Well- obviously screwed that up. My reply is included in the quote. I’m not deleting it and typing the thing again- sorry