Newbie - Ready to get rid of this addiction.

Hi my name is Steve.

I'm 30 years old from Australia.

For the longest time I've had a porn addiction and have been good at keeping it a secret.

My addiction started so long ago somewhere at the start of puberty, I grew up with the age of the internet. Started with magazines and VHS videos. As the internet got better my addiction grew stronger.

My longest relationship has been for a month. Looking back I understand why I've never had a huge drive to have a long term relationship.

I would go out drinking and attempt to pick up girls. The sad thing is lots of times I knew that If I didn't score it didn't matter because I could go home and look at porn.

As technology has got better my mind and downstairs has been tricked into thinking that I'm reproducing.

I've realised as you look at porn there will never be a perfect time to quit, porn stars come and go.

In the end it doesn't matter because the result is the same, the feeling you have before the deed is nothing like the feeling afterwards.

I have blocking software and the right mental attitude to give it a red hot go.

If I do stumble I won't fall off the wagon.

A quote from Rocky Balboa sums up my feeling.

"Life isn't about how hard you can hit, it's about how much you can take and keep moving forward"

If I fall off the wagon, I'll get back on and start again.

I've gone 4 days and feel really good.

 

Thanks very much. Feeling tempted but I'm staying strong!