Hello there :)

So... hi to you all. I am an 18 years old boy from Spain who has been addicted to PM since I was little (8yo or so). The thing is, my P addiction isn't normal, like, I don't usually watch normal P, but fetish based P.

The fetishes I have go against my natural self and I am disgusted at what can turn me on, but I seem to forget it every time I have an urge to M (I don't know if this is how you're supposed to write these things xD).

Anyway, on the first of this brand new year I made a resolution that I would go on a PMO streak until I reached a state in which O is not possible (sexual relationship). So, I deleted every video I had on my computer that I saved for 2 whole years (a lot of them very rare) and I blocked all the websites I used to visit on a daily basis.

Now I'm on a 4 day streak and to be honest, since I don't have any videos on my PC anymore and porn sites are blocked, it is pretty easy not to think about it. I also tried this some months ago and my longest streak was 2 weeks, I believe, but however, I am very optimistic of what I can achieve.

 

Good luck to you too pal

 

Love comes when love has to come. I'm looking forward to it though

 

Nice thinking

 

Day 5. No problems at all for now.
I've just finished programming a bingo software we had to do for school after one week of work and right now I'm very happy. I decided not to check social media so often, and now that I don't have anything else to do, I'm thinking of going outside for a bike ride, with myself, since my friend is sick at home.

 

They do not actually. We had to make it with bidimensional arrays and A LOT of loops

 

Day 6. I had TWO erotic dreams last night and I don't even know why. Since I started on the 1st of January I've had a total of 6 of them and it has never happened that often until now. I don't know if this is my brain trying to mess with my progress or a natural response due to the radical change of my habits. When I was dreaming I thought I couldn't make it to day 6 and everything was so surrealistic. Nevertheless when I woke up the pessimism was gone, and although I keep having flashbacks of the dreams I think I'm all right for now

 

You're right, thinking about it constantly won't help at all

 

So, 10 days, huh?
I haven't posted anything on here from day 6 because actually nothing very special has happened. Yesterday, though, I thought on watching some normal porn (thing that didn't turn me on before), and it's still kinda the same, no erection whatsoever. However then, I decided to watch some things I used to watch before (fetish stuff) and it wasn't so bad as I thought. Ten days before today, if I had done the same, I'd have immediately relapsed. However yesterday was different. I was able to control myself and with next to no effort at all. It still turned me on though, but it wasn't that kind of erotic response I'd expected.

After that, I just continued my now normal day to day, without thinking back of what I saw. I think the no PMO method is working perfectly for me. Before starting, I often used to look at girls with a sort of perversion that I don't have anymore. It has helped me a lot to remove all the material I had and remove all the accounts of websites I used to visit.

However, I'm still a bit afraid of the problem I have with normal porn. It just doesn't turn me on to see some random dude having an intercourse with a girl. It turns me off to see dudes in porn, even if it is fetish, but I don't know if that's the real problem, or if I'm just not attracted to normal intercourse, which would obviously be a problem.

I am still a virgin and I have never had a girlfriend, so I don't know how sex actually works. But I'm afraid not to be able to perform well in bed because of this.