Quitting porn/masturbation/sex fantasizing is the most irrational thing I ever did

That's not to say it's not the best decision that practically saved my life, because it is. I honestly feel like i would've been in my own personal version of hell now, whether dead or alive I don't know, had I not quit porn/masturbation/sex fantasizing.

But I was just thinking... after years of struggling and finally managing to turn off the switches in my head that allowed me to masturbate and perceive sex fantasy as reality (cause all erotica and our own fantasies are sex fantasies)... what I just did is irrational.

As I said, to be able to masturbate you HAVE to perceive fantasy as REAL. I turned that switch off. I left a world of infinite harems, a world where I could have whoever I wanted, whenever I wanted, however I wanted, as many times as I wanted. I left a world where everything was supposedly about myself, where all the women were stripping for me, a world where I was KING. It was not a real world and it was killing my real self, but it was a world nonetheless, a world of infinite pleasure and power.

So I left. I left the world where I ruled over all. I left that world for a world where i'm a mere peasant. Going from millions of women who I was "having sex" with to one where I have sex with none. A world where it currently sucks, a world in which i have next to no skills with women cause i never needed to develop them in the first place because of porn/masturbation/sex fantasies. I just picked whoever I pleased and she instantly served me.

I work with addicts for a living and having been one myself I firmly believe that quitting an addiction, at least in the short and medium term, is actually an irrational thing to do. That's not to say it needs to be done regardless.