So, to be honest, I don't really know what I'm asking here, but lately I've been feeling like sexuality is just a nuisance. I'm 19, a virgin, and have never had a girlfriend, been out on a date, or kissed or hugged a girl, and lately I've just been feeling annoyed by my desire for sex and emotional intimacy. I do have a desire deep down for these things, but I just wish I didn't. Dating just seems like more trouble than it's worth, and I'd rather focus on other things without having to waste time on relationships. Is this normal? Are these feelings something I should be worried about or need to address? I don't really know how to articulate this well, which is rare for me, but...
Wow. You basically just described me, about the only difference between our stories is that I got a hug once. I certainly don't have an answer for you, I think that a relationship is a beautiful thing and have wanted one for years (to no avail), but as time goes by I find myself getting more and more frustrated with it all and kind of just wish I could switch my sexuality off from time to time. It is so frustrating to want a relationship with a girl, but feel like there are a million hurdles to cross just for a chance at finding it, and its certainly a major cause of relapse for me. Don't know if OP can identify with this or not, but if anyone has any advice then I'm certainly all ears.
I think that Porn has made me this way. It's easier to rub one out watching porn than it is to deal with all the complications and worry that come with a relationship. Yet deep down in me is a strong desire to fund that special one and settle