Even though, feeling like shit, positivity and ability to fight this journey I will never surrender.

Even though at the moment, I am feeling lowest of all lows and been experiencing really shitty symptoms, I will not surrender and will continue this fight until I am free.

Last year I had withdrawals for 90 days and proved that I could get out of it and superpowers returned. I remember in May 2018 or June 2018 I went out to night clubs and was just sitting there feeling happy. People asked and said to me "Man you look so happy! whats up with you?"... I was just happy cause out of months of withdrawal and suffering I just enjoyed the moment of being one.

I suffered Feb 2014 to JUly 2015 (16 months straight of withdrawal) and also suffered 3 months withdrawal last year from Feb 2018 - May 2018 and suffering now 2 months straight of 60 days withdrawal, and still doing full-time work, where the work is getting stressful and studies full-time is very difficult. But I will not surrender and keep fighting.

THe most important thing in my life right is to keep 100% clean and 100% no addictions. Get good sleep and feel normal.

Keep on fighting... let these withdrawals continue, as WilliamAndTheOne, dontlast, Big Lebowski said that it's only a matter of time before I get better. It's good cause these withdrawals are evidence that I am fighting this horrible addiction.