It really feels like mission impossible; but after finding this site, I want to believe it's possible. This is day number one for me and I'm feeling optimistic. I hope to find the support I need to win the fight against P. My goal for now is 30 days no P. Other than joining this forum and I have also installed Mobicip on my mobile device. I will be testing it out the next several days before I start looking for an AP. I also have K9 installed on my desktop and laptop. Although K9 has worked well, I haven't been able to find a good filter for Android device. Hopefully Mobicip will do the trick. Although, I also realize the problem lies in my brain. But until I get there, I also know that I need these barriers. I'll take the opportunity to send a shout-out to Alex for creating this site. You're a great man for it! Best to all!
K-9 is a great tool. Any tool in a person's first few battles against this really helps, honestly. Keep going strong, don't give up. You'll have failures, sure, but remember that they'll get you closer to your larger goal. I you don't mind my asking: do you have a minor and major goal set up?
Thanks for your words morethanaconqueror_7. Just to clarify, it's my first day after a relapse last night. I fell into the habit 4 years ago and have been struggling to get ride of it since then. The longest stretch has been 3 months. Since I updated my phone to the new Android kitkat, it's been even harder to stay off P because K9 stopped working. To answer your question, my short-term goal is no P ever and long-term no MPO. Thanks for asking!
I'm 57 years old. I've been surrounded by and have had access to porn my whole life. I can even "sense it" if it's nearby or in the room. How weird is that. But the thing is I didn't get hooked on internet porn until a few years ago. I can only imagine how much more difficult it is for those who have been baptized into P through technology. I would think it's more of a struggle because you've conditioned your brain. Regardless, I think it's great to have support like this and a place where we can help each other stay strong. You can reach your goals. So can I. Too many success stories on here to encourage us.
I'm thirty-five and I completely relate to your situation TakeMyLifeBack. Every time I relapse I say it will be the last. Then someway or another it ends up happening again. I need to find a way to get over the urge and the chaser effect.
