my story

I beg your pardon for my english. hello. i am 50 yo. Here is my story. i do PMO every night. This is from my early youth. I did not realized that, though This caused me a lot of problems with girls since 18 yo, because i had a lot of friends lovely girls, but i was all satisfied by porn. I was totally unable to invite a girl to have time togheter. the Internet was not available at that time, but i used to buy porno papers. I met a girl then we fall in love. currently I'm married, one son 18 yo. I exerienced sexual problems since beginning of my marriage. after two years fiance, me and lady decided to marry. Sex is not so good with wife, since from fiance, not so god, but so years are gone, a lot of work, then the usual problems of life. But every night I wait the midnight, when all the family is in bed. And there starts my second life. Go to the Youporn, PMO, sometimes twice.
The sex with wife shows the problem that i am unable to have orgasm inside her. after two minutes sex she says she has pain. So i have orgasm only with masturb. And then again PMO.
In 2010 i started to go to prostitutes. One event a month. 4 years. Same situation.
I was able to orgasm only with masturb. But PMO every night.
Then i went on dating sites. I meet a lady. A wonderful one. We had a lovely relation that last 3 years.
she left me saying to me "you never have orgasm inside me". But PMO every night.
Now i back to wife. Now i go every Wednesday to a Psychologist, a lady, since one year.
She told me a lot of things. I dont know if she helped me or not. But i discovered by myself
that the problem is PMO. I am satisfied only by myself. And totally unable to have satisfing sex with a woman.
Hope to find an help and that this story can be useful to others.

 

...The hidden goal of the presentation is to rebuild the love in my marriage and family and reach normal ability to O with the partner....I hope.....I am here because I found this place a comfortable place where to face all those matters ...

 

Thanks a lot for reply. Surely it will be good. I wil have to share somethins, i guess, may be not in details, to show my plan. I have to say after 4 days, i feel relaxed, calm. I am sincere, I suppose i will have M next days, I suppose my problem is the massive P, not M. Bye!