Why did YOU fap?

Porn is the epitome of a vicious cycle. We use it to make ourselves feel better, then it leaves us feeling worse afterwards. Be glad you're out of it, friend. Things will get better. Like freedom from any addiction, things just gradually improve.

 

I've realized that PMO and fapping are forms of escapism for me. I'm a very sensitive person and sometimes quite afraid of social situation, especially intimate relationships. With fapping and P, I can have sexual pleasure without taking the risks of real relationships. If I get my kicks from P and M, I don't have to face the things i'm afraid of.

 

I ended up fapping many times for stress relief. If something happened in my life that was out of my control and negative, I turned to masturbation because I could control that. I also went to it out of boredom. Boredom many times is a lake of vision in life. So when I couldn't see past my direct circumstances or do something with imdeadiate satisfaction, I turned to fapping. I am an addict so there was no life without fapping. When I was not fapping I was just waiting for the next time I was going to. I think for many of us, this is the case. Reboot is important simply because any addiction is unhealthy and degrading. PMO is our addiction and we have to break that if we want to live a full life.

 

Boredom. It started when I was a teenager and I discovered porn. If I wasn't doing something I was faping but eventually the habit got so bad that I would be working on school work or gaming and I would stop to look at porn and fap. And the last indignity is that it reached the point where I would fap multiple times a day everyday.

 

in the beginning i was watching porn and fapping only once in a month. i think that was not so bad - but it became an obsession. it increased more and more - harder and harder stuff. nearly twice a day. fapping every day. i would say i am really addicted since about 8 years. watching porn made me also sexaddicted (visiting prostitutes).

why did you fap?

i think i am an extrem horny guy - anytime i lost the control over my lust. i was a slave of my desire.

i told myself every time - "that is normal. everyone is doing that. you are a man and being lusty is normal. you want only fun there is no problem with that."

but i reached a point where i realized that my behavior is not normal. that i have a real problem with sexuality - with the right dose of sexuality and lust.

 

For me the reason started with pleasure seeking, since I did not have the outlet in real life and the sex desire was there.
Over time it became a stress reliever in during exams and what not
Lately I almost preferred PMO over real social interaction with females and that is Addiction.

 

Very similar to my situation. This year has been tough professionally and personally and it's been hard to keep on track. Stress and anxiety are my main excuses.

 

To remove stress from school and my inability to attract any woman (For now ). Just trying my best to survive without resetting (Just did so a few minutes ago) in order to improve myself.

 

Listen man stay strong we are all friends even though we dont know each other we rely on each other for emotional support good luck on your journey and may god bless yours btw im not religous

 

I started fapping because i enjoyed it. Slowly it became my routine. It was satisfying my sexual desires. But as the time passed I became addict and I had to use it to relieve my stress.If I don't fap, I start feeling anxious.

 

For me it was simply because it was my only sexual release as I can't get a woman.

On those times when I'd have the house to myself or lived on my own I'd often go at it a couple times a day. However that wasn't so much a drive to do it but I'd think, hey I'll eventually get old and die so I might as well enjoy Mr Happy as much as I can. Even then after a few days of 3 times a day I'd often have to force myself to it as opposed to have the need to. Part of that was when I was a teen my arm would give out before I did, it was not until I discovered the use of soap as lube when I was about 20 that I'd get myself off. I really wish I'd clue in on that earlier thus the drive.

 

Compulsive/obsessive personality with high sex drive and relationship/sex failures...

 

there's 101 reasons you can state why you did it. But there is just 1 why you shouldn't - become a better person.

 

true, because a man should look like a man

 

I started because it felt good, and at some point I kept going because I became addicted and was told it was healthy to masturbate.

 

Stress, boredom, lonliness, anger, self pity, low self worth, the ejactulation without having to form relationships for sex which is due to avoid getting hurt, let down, and treated like shit

Wow

 

I became obsessed with porn and all things sexual when i first started looking at porn, when i was in my early teens probably. Maybe even 12.

It was all i could think about. I was probably addicted by age 14 or 15. I don't think i have gone more than a week without masturbation since then.

I probably haven't gone more than 2 weeks without porn since then.

And since becoming a sex addict when i was about 22/23, I probably haven't gone more than a week with without some kind of sex act with a random person. I am now almost 28.

It would be a miracle if i could get to 30 days.

I think all of this is porn induced, including my high sex drive. I don't think individuals have natural high or low sex drives, i think they are all acquired and accumulate from our experiences.

 

For me it started as something I enjoyed. It felt good. After years of doing it the luster is gone and a sheer emptiness accompanies every time I do it. It is now a compulsive act that I know is causing harm. No question. I look at women differently when I am in one of binges, which they sense and makes communication with them all the more challenging.

Now, I do it mostly because of feelings of self-pity, stress, and low self-confidence, hence the feelings of emptiness mentioned above. However, in the last year I have sensed that things are slowly turning around. I have had phases where I have not PMO'd for almost a month, July of last year and January of this year. Change in the air? I hope so! I certainly know that I have greater clarity and feel light-years better when I do not do it for a prolonged period of time.

 

Thank you so much for sharing. Omg. I hate myself. I cant stop.