PMO is life-altering

The woman I watch--names I will not mention for relapse purposes--are all gorgeous in one way or another, 5-10 - 6'1 woman with voluptuous booties and nice hair. Which connects easily to my physical preferences of the type of woman I date. After a while your mind begins to stretch your confidence entwined with your insecurity, making you believe these women are in your league or that beauty is easy to come by for you. Then creating insecurity when you are around these women confusing your ego making you question and second guess yourself.

This is also an example. Last year I was still in school after summer vacation, and at this stage of my early years still being 18-I gave up porn and was on 430 days PMO free. Unfortunately, I was dealing with heavy insecurity and flaws in my personality but no-one else could see it as I played the fake-confidence role insanely well, broad attention from females-because I not only dismissed PMO from my life, but I also take care of my appearance very well-this all felt as if they couldn't sense that I used to be a lonely stay at home pornopro.

I wasn't Captain Fappy-RiverCum anymore and had no relapse ideas in mind. I wanted women, and so I received the attention, all I had to was initiate and if I did I probably wouldn't be here but fuck insecurity, it's a real bitch. But, when I searched up the sites of my lusty desire one day, a decision to try porn on my laptop came about (before this I was used to being using only my phone). And so it began, after a great few fapps, the attention from woman decreased and I found myself, eye-fucking woman, as they do in porn films. From here, everything went downhill for I am currently getting rid of the idea that I am creepy due to constant eye-fucks that create discomfort for the female sex.

The End.