Whats the point?

Dude should have told me 14 days back when I was on my 200 days streak. I was calm. I dont have any acumulated energy now, contrary

 

Thanks for repeating my point ,)

 

Im feeling a bit better. Was a rollercaster ride. Mostly in a darkest side of my mind. The fog and negative feelings/emotions are slowly leaving now.

Its strange this happened.

I wonder if I am physically and mentally fit.

I know that after 200 days hard mode, it was a shock to the body and mind. I think I was not ready... like the body was in sleep, doing the repairs and all of sudden BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM, thats the total number of orgasms I had during 3 weeks/3 sessions.

But honestly. 2 years back before I started nofap, I could pmo 5x a day and feel just normal.. I did not have some huge mental/physical problems.

I was just not motivated to get a real girl. And if I got one, I was impotent. Yes thats bad but. I felt mostly ok.

After this "healing" a orgasm is a small suicide to me.

Why???