A New Member.

My name is Tom and I'm 30 years old. Like many I have been in denial about my addiction to porn and masturbation and I would get upset when my wife had pointed to the problem a couple of years ago. I actually came across NoFap on Youtube by accident (looking for fapping material), I came to the site read a little bit and filed it away in that dusty file cabinet in my brain as a good idea but was still unable to let go of my addiction. What brings me here today at this hour is the fact that my addiction has come to an all time low, I've been lying to my wife using my ADD medication as the excuse that I couldn't perform in bed when in fact I was masturbating one to three times that day and just didn't have any energy in that department left for her, it has gotten so bad that the normal avenues of porn and masturbation weren't working I would spend almost two hours trying to get off instead of 5-10 minutes on the same material, I have masturbated myself to the point I am raw and bruised and for the last couple of weeks it has actually been painful to ejaculate, I even linked an occasional pain similar to a UTI that only lasts for an hour or so to the frequent masturbation. I haven't read enough posts or testimonials to know if I am sharing too much, if I am...umm sorry. So, I have been hiding my porn and masturbation from my wife, I'm quite literally fapping my life away with the amount of time that could be spent doing something beneficial and I am in pain mentally and physically, I have hit my breaking point almost literally and I know something needs to change. I've read about some of the success others have had and the improvements the NoFap challenges have had on their life and I want that to. I know this won't be a quick fix and I am going to have some struggles but heck if it was easy to stop it wouldn't be an addiction. I look forward to sharing my ups and downs as well as reading about yours. Here's day Zero, see you all around.

Tom