I recently nade sex with a crossdresser or a trans i didnt see well because the room was dark and i even sucked **** but didnt get penetrated , all i want is to get back to my normal self again , i feel so awful its been 2 days since it happened and cant shake the feeling of regret
Well, it was dark. Just sayn' However, you should probably stay away from situations that cause shame and regret. You are ultimately responsible for your own actions.
What's done is done. Record our feelings in some way to remind you if you run across this again. Then - move on and don't repeat
You made a mistake. Everyone does. Things happen. Dont dwell on it. Just work on not putting yourself in those situations again.
As mentioned above, everybody makes mistakes. Use it as a learning experience but try your hardest not to dwell. Forgive yourself and move on. Just the other day I went to a massage parlor, which I do weekly as a married man and father, and had a woman do more than what I usually get. Now I fear that I may have gotten a disease from her. Though I'm experiencing a ton of fear, remorse, and guilt, I have forgiven myself for the awful judgement and am moving forward towards recovery again. This is why we are here, to listen and help each other along the way. Don't beat yourself up my friend. Forgive and move on.