Today, as I was relapsing, I have decided to teach myself a lesson for all that. Nothing crazy, though. I thought to myself: "you are going to be doing this for the next hour, without stopping or finishing!". And so did I, whereas one regular relapse hardly takes 10 minutes. And so I spent more than one hour relapsing. No, I could not find it pleasuring anymore. I just ordered myself to stay there and keep doing what I was doing or had been doing for almost 7 years. It's a revealing feeling, you start to think of every aspect of why this is so detrimental, the time you've been wasting all these years, the nonsense of all of it. And all of that during the act, which usually never happens due to the adrenaline/dopamine rush. You really start to think about it and find it really bad. But I kept going, I really wanted to teach myself this lesson (no pleasure anymore) I completely exhausted the damn meat. It was a good thing to do, in terms of the lesson I've learnt. All that time you never get back. Just try watching the clock go for one hour. That's what I did. And it's a really, really valuable lesson about time. We must all see beyond these carnal urges. The success is equivalent to the way you spend your time, and really have I changed my mind about this compulsive behaviour I've had all these years. No "last time, I swear" works. Only lessons do. I think I'm not the only one with hundreds of attempts. But it's already 80% fixed when you don't give up. This forum is the only way for many. We need to save it from the porn industry threats and keep promoting it.
Inspirational man. I like that you shared this. It's like you made yourself go through something you know is wrong, when you weren't into it, in order to learn and grow from it. Now you take this knowledge and apply to next time and say to yourself.. I remember how dumb this was last time and this time will be no different. Good stuff.
Am I wrong or you intentionally watched porn and masturbate during one hour? Now you think it was refreshing to you, because you learned that "it's not a pleasure anymore"? Give us a call after several days. I'm curious what will be the outcome of this.
after a long streak, relapsing doesn't make you feel good. However, your brain still send urges to do it
