Cybersex addiction

Anyone has experience with that? It is horrible. I spent 90 % of my money on Webcam Models. It feels like a new level of addiction. I am not even interested in usual porn, even if it is fetish, i need webcam with hardcore shit, sometimes i do not get even hard with this. It's so crazy because there are so many girls doing nearly everything you want, and when you are inside one time it's hard to quit. It feels like you was on drugs, you forget time, feel weird after. I guess much dopamine... If i go on with this, i will ruin all my money and my life... masturbating way too much, if you do not play webcam, i have fantasies about that, and it is hard not to think about this. I get always new ideas what crazy to do with the girls, and then i think just do this time, and then comes the next idea

 

Wonna stay in contact about this? I really need to get off this, maybe we could help each other.

yeah, i know that. Just today, one last time. Typical addiction behavior. Since i started to get in bdsm cam, with girls playing slaves almost with no limits, it's hard for me to get free from that. I started 5 years ago, first it was kind of harmless, but know i learned how to get much for your money and it is just fucked up, i can not control. BDSM Cams gives me a power over the person, i usually can not get in real life, maybe expect i do a dom/sub relationship. Exspecially when you spent high amounts, girls are really interested to satisfy you, because they need regular costumers, and some are willing to do things for you then, which is usually limit for them. Which gives you the feeling of power.

To be honest, i am not even working. I am student, and i have big money problems because of my addiction. Some days i struggle have enough for eat. This is really stupid, i know. And i know what addiction is. I know cocaine, i know nicotine addiction. But this is almost nothing compared to the cam addiction.
Usually i would agree with your statement, that camsites are too expensive. But if you look deep in the internet, and know how to handle with cam girls, you will find a good service for fair rates. I do not want to get too much in detail, do not want to trigger anybody. But i have to say, i am satisfied what i get for the money. Problem is, that i can not control the frequency, and still spending money, when i have none. :/ If i would do this 1 time per months for 100$, it would be ok. Last months i spent over 1000$.