all we have is our shout into the wind

I'm 48 and I've been jacking off for 35 years and using porn for 20 years. Until recently, I only gave lip service to my intention to change. In my heart, I don't think I really believed it was possible.

However, I recently discovered NoFap and some people I consider heroes because they have made the break and have convinced me that I can make the break too. It's really possible! I'm 20 days in, a record. The insight that changed everything for me was when I realized that porn is *not* an innocent and harmless pastime. Porn fucks me up and reinforces my sense of inadequacy. I've spent way too much time for a quick release of pleasure, but it left me empty -- unable to really love another person, or really understand what it means to be loved by another person. No more!

Find your personal reason for quitting -- one that is bigger than your desire to PMO. Hold on to that reason. If you fall, get up. If you fall again, get up again. If you still continue to fall, continue to get up. It's worth it.

 

Welcome to this forum friend. I have a worse story than yours. They were days I cried over my helpless addiction and faped seconds after stopping crying. I felt I was the worse addict in the entire history of men. I have felt trapped, surrounded and even bewitched to never be able to stop.

One thing I have always done is to never give up my fight to be free. I always bounce back and continue the fight because to fight an addiction is not an easy task. Your brains have been hijacked and you have Little or no control over it.

The truth is that there is hope my friend, there is hope. You can actually be one of those people on this page who have years as their streak and who advice people.

I was in a worse situation than yours but now I'm recovering.

1. Promise yourself you won't stop fighting no matter the times you fail.
2. Read about recovery symptoms. Your recovering symptoms alone can always bring you back to PMO but if you identify them and understand they are temporal (some can go as far as two years, but it is worth it) you will win.
3.Get help if possible, 97% of addict cannot recover on their own. You can also move to stay with a trusted friend or have them over, you don't need tell them your plan is to use their company as a distraction from PMO but if possible let them know it will really help u to fight better.

4. PMO is not free, there will be consequences, from impotency to reduced brain function.
5. You ca an reverse all damages with abstinence

 

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Welcome to the community!

 

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