Want to stop but can't

Going through a rough period, having tinnitus and now auditive hallucinations, the only stress relieve is watching porn, really hate myself for watching horrible porn again every day.
Trying meditation, but just can't relax, emotionally feel drained.
Need to come up with something to keep my mind busy in the evening, so I can start my streak of nofap again, but it's not easy.

 

I went to the doctor, basically he said it might go away in a month or 2 but might be permanent also, will do some test at the hospital soon, but they don't expect to see anything serious.
The option if it gets worse or doesn't go away is psychiatric medication, but I should consider those last resort as it seems they are really strong with lots of possible side effects.

 

I already have tinnitus, but sort of able to distract myself to block them for some time, the tinnitus reacts badly to music so I avoid it mostly, but the auditive hallucinations, are mostly alarms, like ambulance sirens, church bells, but also a screaching sound ( just listen to Jump Around from House of Pain and you will hear that noise). It is so distracting and hard to block as they are alarms and alarms are made to pull your attention. It's not very loud but I'm scared that they can get louder.

It's really getting to me, I was doing well with nofap, but back to porn and edging for hours :-(
Trying to pick myself up, but feel the abyss is very deep.​