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Has PMO ruined my relationship?

Discussion in 'Rebooting in a Relationship' started by Junior987, May 18, 2020.

  1. Junior987

    Junior987 Fapstronaut

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    Hi,
    I'm 32 years old and have been addicted to PMO since maybe 15years old. I have have been aware of this being a problem and have been trying to quit for the last 10 years.

    My girlfriend and mother of my child 7 year old child are having a tough time. We broker up when my daughter was maybe 2 years old. We got back together when she was 6.

    She feels that I don't show her any love, I'm selfish, and that I don't care about the relationship. I agree with why she feels like that, I'm not naturally good at relationships across the board. Men and women, I don't do well with the relationships. I tend to keep people at a distance, mainly for for fear of finding out about my addiction and how it has effected everything. I have to lie to keep up appearances, to avoid embarrassment. I also think my distancing is caused by my relationships with my mom and my dad. Both are not good.

    My dad was never there, I am close with the rest of the family but not him, our relationship is like a distant uncle. My mom raised me, but she depended on me like a partner and it caused feelings of anger and bitterness. We don't really have a good relationship. I feel these have contributed to me pushing everyone way, I don't have much really close friends and my relationships with girls have never been good.

    I have used porn, weed, and video games to escape my life. When shit hits the fan, I looked to self help books to help me find a solution. This usually leads to paralysis as I feel there is so much I need to get better at that I don't know where to start.

    My girlfriend told me today she doesn't think she can stay in this relationship. I understand why she feels this way as the signs have been there. Her dreams, her bad moods, her distance. I want to work on the relationship but it's hard to make someone happy when your not happy yourself.
     
  2. Sorry about that brother.
    It can be a trying moment.
    I commented to tell you that quitting porn opens a wide door and closes a lot of doors.
    You would be surprised by the connection all your life situations share with the porn addiction
    Start today. Take the first step. Before long, it will be 2 steps, 10, 100
    Wishing you the best
     
  3. njob93

    njob93 Fapstronaut

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    I feel that hard with regards to your mother and father. My therapist told me that a lot of Porn addicts grow up with a family dynamic such as this. Hope your situation can work out!
     
  4. Tom9526

    Tom9526 New Fapstronaut

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  5. Tom9526

    Tom9526 New Fapstronaut

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    It seems like you have low self esteem bro and need a new direction in life i recommend that you join the gym it will help you quit the weed n abstain from master action and porn as you will want to keep all your energy for training n want to have sex with your girlfriend as it be the only way to release am determined to stop myself as gym is big part of my like i train harder if dont masterbate as makes me feel stronger n more energy n have more sex with my mrs
     
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  6. Hey junior, I’m so sorry to hear of your troubles. I understand why you use weed and porn. But it does not work, we all know that.

    When I was your age I had the same problems with my father. Now that I’m older things are better. I think it is a thing that happens with almost every father and son.

    Maybe, instead on focussing on the situation, you should focus on yourself. What can you do to become the man you really are, or the man you dreamt of to be when you were young. Truth is we will never exactly be that man but we can move in that direction.

    Try not to force yourself, or put high expectations and pressure on yourself to achieve that goal. Instead, try things, get into actions that move you in the direction you want to go. And move with them.

    Sounds a bit abstract I know. To make it practical: do things. Start things. Start with easy things like redecorating your house. Gym, hobbies, sports, easy to start with.

    They get you out there and meet people. They are the basis for new things, like a better house or a better job. Or just for fun. Fun is good, we need mindless, unpolitical fun.

    Tell your parents and your girlfriend you are working on yourself first. They will root for you! Improving the situation with them will come later and that is a good thing.

    Reality is a bit less organized. It’s messy and things usually don’t go according to plan. But if you embrace the warm chaos, things will work out eventually.

    I wish you all the best.
     
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  7. Junior987

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    Thank you all for the support and the advice
     
  8. plato89

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    I'd suggest you consider looking for a good therapist. Therapy can help a lot but it won't happen over night!
     
  9. Saitama1000

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    You can do it mate ! There are a lot of people here in the same boat and striving to succeed as you. Take the first step to quit and when you do, you will find out you have more time on your hand. Invest it by keeping yourself busy and showing your girlfriend she means to you.
     
  10. Exhale the past

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    Boring and hear brother
    Know exactly how you feel is in the exact same seat as you.
    I o my partner have been together for 2 years soon and have a son of 7 months together and as I said a few months ago she really wanted to help me but I just continued in my bad behavior with lies o had difficulty o talk about everything past etc ..
    Then eventually I started talking to her, and she said (if you want help you have to be honest with me)
    That was the thing that saved our relationship, believe me.
    It was really painful, but as I said it really got me started working on the problems o coming up with the reasons and solving everything.
    She pushed me for and not look at po and it is thanks to her and my son I ended it if you count all the days since the last time I did it I am probably up for 300+ days
    Try and find your motivation and take time o be honest that is the most important thing and that you can acknowledge your faults and shortcomings / problems
    Just send a private message if you need help
     

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