Hey fellow fapstronauts, I was introduced to porn when I was 8 by a cousin, this was while I still used to live in a 3rd world country where access to internet on mobile devices only required kilobytes of data, when waptrick still used to be a thing. At the time I didn't know what I was getting myself into but it felt good for sure. I never masturbated at first because I always thought to myself, "Why would you hurt your john thomas like that". Fastforward to age 12, I decided to quit and for the better part of four years I did. Two factors made this easier for me: I was in a third world country (gotta spend sums of money to get data), and I was enrolled in a boarding school with no access to mobile devices. Right now I am 19 and I moved to the US 3 years ago (at age 16). As much as it was a culture shock for me, it was also a revelation regarding the unrestricted access to the digital world. Coming freshly into the US to begin college, I was the brightest student in my high school class: I won math competitions, science olympiads, had high scores on national exams. I had such a tenacious motivation beginning college that I was going to do my utmost best to learn and be a successful student. Until porn happened... While I was still acclimatizing to the new culture, sometimes I felt lonely and that would cause me to retreat and go to porn. Little by little, once in 2-3 months from freshman year to sophomore year, on a sad night I would watch porn for hours into the night. But then Junior year came, along with the rigor of academics, and I gave fully in. Needless to say, my grades have been at their lowest since I began college, my social cues dropped drastically, and my chances of getting into the grad schools of my choice are really low My battle against porn has been filled with many relapses, but I understand that it's now or never, for my sake and that of my future family. Today marks the beginning of a fresh battle with no intent on losing
I believe you can quit it for good this time! You have a lot of reasons to quit, and now you have a great community to help you, just make sure to be practical and post frequently. I've also heard good things about accountability groups, so you may want to check those out. Good luck!
