Withdrawal: Escaping the numbed life

Each time I attempt to quit PMO I undergo a series of withdrawals. The first 5-7 days are by far the hardest. I have crazy physical urges at random times but especially if I'm alone at the computer.

If I make it past around 7 days I become jittery. I begin to experience emotions in a much deeper way that I usually numb out with PMO. I laugh deeper and have bursts of energy i'm not used to having. The good times feel much "gooder" (I wish that was a word) and the bad times are much worse (badder, ha!).

I find that around day 12-15 it becomes easy not to use PMO. But as soon as I have a pretty bad day I almost become self destructive. I watch P because I know that it will fill my mind completely and take away all other emotions. I crave the numbness that PMO provides when I am sad. These bad days seem to always cause me to relapse.

So how do you deal with these intense new emotions? I am not used to "feeling deeply" because I have numbed my emotions with PMO for many years.