I am a slave of lust.

Hey guys,
I joined the forum today. I am in the late 20s and going to marry with in one year. I want to share my personal story about how i have become a slave of lust.
My feelings for girls started at the age of nine. I used to imagine about girls and women every day like a habit. To hide my erection i would sleep on my belly. Now i have slightly curved penis. I first masturbated in class 10. My body just trembled when i got the orgasm. The sight of semen and the climax feeling made me stop doing it any further. But my desire for women never subsided. I would have frequent nightfalls. Somehow i didn't dare to masturbate until i was 19. Almost 4 years i avoided it since i first did at 15. In the mean time i had opportunity to read books about the side effects of masturbation that helpe me overcome the urge of masturbation.
I have a got tight frenulum. I realised this when i started doing it. Naturally i would reach climax very soon. I read some articles on internet about how to avoid premature ejaculation. Accordingly i stop the motion when i am about to come. In this way i can hold for longer. Earlier i used to imagine about girls now that i had computer i stopped doing that. I started watching porn for hours while masturbating simultaneously. Of course i used the trick of stopping myself just before climax. I have the record of doing it for more than 12 hours. Of course 12 hours erection is not possible. But i some how mange to wake my penis by stimulating it when it becomes flaccid. Over these years i have developed a fetish which i try to satisfy by watching videos on porn sites, youtube. It's been about 10 years since i have been indulging myself for hours watching and doing at the same time. In this way i have become a slave of lust.
Question now arises how my body can bear abuse of such a scale ? I take medicines which have helped replenish some losses. Nevertheless ,Masturbation has many side effects on my body. I have oily scalp accompanied by hair fall, pimples etc. My eyes have moved inside the sockets, my handsome face has become ugly and it seems my pre-cum looks white meaning it contains sperm. Apart from this, my social life has suffered a lot. I like to remain in seclusion.
But the silver lining is that everything can get back to normal if i stop masturbation. It was 3 years ago when for some reason i couldn't masturbate for more than 20 days. Guess what i got back my beautiful face which was based on people's feedback. But relapse happened after that and my face somewhat has lost the charm again.
So now i have decided to stop watching pornography and masturbating al together.
Thank you

 

Thanks for your support. It is difficult to defeat porn addiction alone. I have realised this through hard ways. Hence i joined this forum to have helpful friends like you for motivation and support. We can together defeat the evil of lust.