I could sit addicted and completely lose my senses and still not give a fuck . Got to be something wrong with that
The addiction does not care about consequences. Look at straight people who escalate to extreme porn and end up acting out with other guys for example, and end up hating it. The addiction just wants it’s reinforcement, it doesn’t care how traumatised it would leave you. It’s all in your mind. Your addiction just wants that constant reinforcement. Cut the cycle now.