Most boring periods of my life...

I am 20 y.old ,addicted to PMO for almost 6 years now.
I just relapsed after 23 days because of my current situation demotivates me.

My face has been full of acne since puberty. I need a treatment and i know even if acne fade, there will be scars/holes left behind. I notice people find me ugly because of this.

My hair is falling that i know it is genetic. And I won't be able to reverse back it too.
I am becoming bald.

My teeth crooked that when I smile I need to cover my face. I need braces

Sadly all this problems will go away even I stop PMO. I need money and i don't have it. Also My parents won't help me So probably I will waste my youthfulness being ugly.

This is not all

Since i am addicted for 6 years.
My cognitive abilities fucked up. Memory, concentration, intelligence, learning ability, all decreased.

Being anxious over these problems, I built general anxiety disorder so i had to take antidepressants and sedatives for my insomnia at this age. in my first semester at university. Now i finished second semester with Very low gpa.
I think I fucked up university too. or I should study really hard to recover my gpa. With this brain, Under this circumstances I don't see this happening. And then you predicted my future

I feel like God cursed me.

Well until 23 days I thought I would be better, see the improvement but I became worse. I was depressed.
I am a total failure now

My unchangeable apperance and damaged performance in my studies makes me powerless against PMO.

Thank you for reading.
Looking forward for your replies

 

I meant won't go away

 

Thank you my friend
I won't give up on nofap. It is necessary