19 y/o newbie ready to make some changes

Hello everyone. I am super pumped to start on my rebooting journey and meet all of yall.

I am a 19 y/o male currently in Uni. I first watched porn in elementary school because a friend of mine showed it to me. I didn't start masturbating until middle school. Throughout high school I watched porn very often and I believe it has killed my sex drive. During quarantine, there were a few times where I was able to go a week without it. I noticed how I felt better. However I always ended up going back to porn.

I had sex with a girl, and I felt nothing. I remember when I was young how seeing a hot girl would make me feel something. I read up on it, and I believe porn and masturbation have de-sensitized me to real people. My goals are to reboot and hopefully reverse this so I can increase my energy levels and motivation, as well as my sex drive.

I am going to start by doing hard mode for 90 days, STARTING NOW.

I suffer from depression and anxiety, and I have lots of shame surrounding my sexual life. I feel like I am behind my friends who had girlfriends in high school and experienced love. I am upset with myself for not realizing what porn was doing to me and stopping sooner. I understand that I am still young and everything happens when you are ready for it. I am hoping that this shame will go away as I master myself and my consciousness.

 

Thank you!

 

lets do it bro

 

Thanks man! and yea I agree therapy would help Ive actually started looking into that

 

Deep wisdom, I am starting to think this way also. I am hoping that restraining from porn will help me be myself, which is what I believe I struggle with. I feel like I need to put on a mask. I am hoping that I will be able to find myself and what I enjoy in life. And I am hoping that I will find a women who I can truly connect with on that level.

 

I am stoked and I am ready to give it all I got!