You Actually Miss It?

A year is amazing!

Don't let them win - they won't last forever. Use all your will power to squash them till they die back down and you can forget about them again.

 

It’s not P that you crave, it’s the excitement of being stimulated which you do.
Did you or did you not MO all this while?

 

It is kind of sad, but I miss it because it feels like it was my number one hobby.
I used to spend hours and “collect” stuff or try to get to know different “stars” and just catch up with it like other people look at celebrity’s news. I know it was trash but it was still such a big part of my life… and there no real demand for 15 years’ worth of porn knowledge in the job market right now.

 

Yeah I definitely miss it and want it a lot actually.

I think all that porn and artificial sexual stimulation on the internet can actually sometimes be really fun. It can also be very comforting when your not feeling good in some sort of way. Just getting lost in all of that stuff for a while by edging, masturbating to it and flicking about tons of different content.

But unfortunately these enjoyable things that it can offer are actually massively outweighed by the negative things it causes.

I mean I admit I would actually love to get lost in porn and artificial sexual stimulation the now, masturbating to it, edging to it, while flicking about tons of different content. But I know all of the problems this causes me, so I don't.

 

It's honestly the weirdest thing. Not only is the habit destructive, but it is also SUPER unproductive - often taking hours of my day. Despite all this, I kind of miss it. I had created a daily routine, where I would see the sexiest and dirtiest women on planet Earth and just enjoy myself (which is especially great when you're not getting any action yourself lol).

But truth is, it isn't worth it all, no matter how hard I may try to justify it. It's just a waste of time which leads to unrealistic expectations. To make things worse, P has interfered with my ability to get hard in real life and M has desensitised my dick to the point I barely feel anything. The negatives of PMO definitely outweigh the positives.

 

correct me if i'm wrong, you may or you may not have completely let go of the bad deed of fapping, deep down inside you still yearn for that feeling of satisfaction. You can only bury something so deep until one day it resurfaces and comes back to you. Uproot the fucking feeling of having to fap because it feels good, let it go, fuck it up and decide that you will never ever fap again period. Cut that motherfucker down and I promise you that the deed of fapping will never see the light of day ever again

 

I often notice guys talking about this, about how they hate all the time they have wasted because of PMO. Don't get me wrong I understand if you have literally wasted a lot of time when you could of been doing good, positive. beneficial things in your life because of PMO, I understand where guys like this are coming from complaining about all the time they have wasted PMOing. But how often are you sitting about doing nothing and wasting time when your not PMOing anyway? Actually just sitting about lot of the time doing nothing while being in a state of discomfort, feeling anxious, agitated, low mood etc. But then when you PMO it can take you to this place where you forget all your worries, you feel a lot better, you don't feel bored etc. I guess the escapism effects I have experienced from PMO feel like some sort of form of meditation to me in a way, except the fact that PMO is causing longer term problems, where as meditating is only producing positive effects in your life.

But yeah something I always ask myself is will I be happier tomorrow if I PMO today or will I be happier tomorrow if I don't PMO today? It is always the latter. Then when tomorrow comes I am always happier when I didn't PMO.

 

I think this is where the real challenge comes from. When you ask questions like this and the urge is so strong, so many people just rationalize the question they try to ask themselves why they have to stop fapping off, and when they make these excuses for this question they end up fapping anyway, because it makes them feel good about themselves. And I think that is one problem many have to face which I myself had to face when I decided to finally uproot that feeling of wanting to fap over and over

 

I think many of us develop like a comforting feeling relating to PMO especially the P-part. Now it is time to replace it with something more meaningful and real.
If you give in you are going back into the depths you were in. I'm sure there are way more positives to stay on the path.

 

That’s good.

 

One thing I sometimes find difficult to come to terms with is that I can feel so strongly that I don't want to watch porn but then at certain times my brain or body will try fight to get me to do so.

 

I miss it all the time even though I know that it is a destructive habit that does nothing for me and makes my life a living hell. Why is this you ask? One word: DOPAMINE. Dopamine is usually called the molecule of more. It continues wanting more and more and is never satisfied in the present moment. It lies to all of us and says: "Go watch some porn, pleasure is right around the corner!" But when we engage in PMO we realize that it was a sick, twisted lie. We end up miserable, and that's because dopamine's end goal is not satisfaction, but the rush when we pursue something. Dopamine = increased wanting + decreased liking. The more we engage in PMO the less we enjoy it but the more we want it. Crazy right???

We can't get enough of what never satisfies us. The secret is to replace PMO with a healthy replacement that fills the same void PMO seeks to fill (loneliness, boredom, strong negative emotions, low self esteem) but actually benefits us in the long run and doesn't ruin our lives.