"Oh whats that? A Pornmag!"..let the games begin.

Hallo fellow Fapstronauts,

above happended when i was around 10 or 12 years old in the bedroom of my parents while they where gone. I´am a guy of 34 years by now and since then i am consuming porn more or less frequent (since my breakup alot more as u may guess).

The reason why i registered here is beacause i started to notice some annoying behaviour of myself, concerning point of views from good friends while discussing topics like the perception of women, self-esteem and so on. I am not already familiar with the vocabulary of NoFap so i have to fall back describing the problem.

Long story short:

1)
Sexual instinct is blocking me from perceiving women as an individual - eg. not from a sexual perspective. Mostly there are only extremes, not relevant or coveted (This situation is sadly something i am sharing with many of my friends and it spreads from ages 27 - 34).

2)
While i am very stressed (Finals for example) somtimes i fall into some kind of "fap-a-thon". It takes ages to find the "right" porn and after i am done, i don´t feel relaxed just exhausted. I mostly do not have control over this behaviour, which means if i am at home and the urge is there i am on it.

3)
The overall feeling of surrendering to my own sexual desires without beeing able to listen to myself - it´s just something which needs to be done - yes its fun okay, but its mostly quantity before quality.


These three points reduce it to the core, and it is really really tiring. There is quite some stuff i didn´t write down, so maybe there will be some opportunity to dive into conversation later on

Thanks for reading,

PS.: Did i mention me and most of my freinds are computer scientists ? Evil to him who evil thinks.

 

Thank you guys!

Poor Präsident Coolidge

 

Six days and a sudden wakeup in the night got me to MO. It´s not like that i feel sad - at least it was my own imagination

Most of the time i was feeling empowered by not going back to porn, but since the last few days the weather was very warm, i didn´t feel the urge that much.
Fun fact - temperature dropped last night about 10 degrees and BAM sex drive comes back. Have to watch out for this situation now, i am warned.

I wanna retry and will start right now and at least, it was six days without watching porn!