the chronic relapser

so constantly i am relapsing around for 4 months. i was really on good recovery 143 days, then pandemic arrived then lockdown . i am worrying a lot because i am just 20. may my wife cheat me in future and also feel lack of masculinity and strength, many time i was embarrassed by relatives and friends because of nice guy traits. it's also inside my brain i think so far as, after reading book no more mr nice guy , i am doing very poor in academic and also going through a neurological problem. i am victim of csa( child sexual abuse) also talk to a councillor but didn't get till today satisfactory result. I've watched porn today and masturbated. my parents are aware of my problems they support me but they also worry a lot about me i think my family has also have problem. so what should i do, because currently the biggest stress in my family is the i am addicted to pmo and pandemic creating more problems and giving restriction to go out and maintain social distancing etc. i am here on nofap for more than 3 years but still stucking there please help and support me i really need it . how to protect self as for great addiction of pmo . I've no girlfriend and no experience of real sex. suggest and share your best experience to stop it and break the cycle.

 

thank you ben how you keep yourself away from smart phone, laptop and other electronic stimulation because i can't throw my smartphone. anyway to minimise the electronic stimulation.

 

thank you very much