Need advice with transwoman porn problem

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This hardship your describe of only being able to get off to transwomen has become a "normal" problem for many porn users because of the way porn desensitizes the brain. This process of desensitization is essentially how watching the same porn over and over again numbs the dopamine receptors in the brain, which makes you go into harder and harder genres. EVERY porn user goes through this, even in the smallest of ways. Think about it like this - there's a reason why nobody just every watches the same porn clip they're whole life; it just doesn't feel good anymore. Another way to see the desensitization process of porn is how nobody ever watches a porn video start to finish, but skips through, focusing on the body parts, scenarios, and positions they like. Excessive porn usage causes excessive porn boredom, leading one to cross the line of "safe porn" into more and more soul-damning material. Shock value and anxiety pump even more dopamine in the brain, which is why users actually go to that stuff in the first place. It has nothing to do with sexual tastes and latent desires, nothing with "repressed sexuality" or "fetishes that represent the real you" or other bullshit porn supporters say. It has everything to do with boredom, addition, thrill-seeking, and plain bad luck frankly. You went and found transwoman porn, while others found gay porn, incest, etc. As weird as it sounds, desensitization is a "natural" part of porn addiction. Any user who uses porn long enough, will cross that red line of "safe porn".

But don't lose hope! The desensitization process can be overcome. The key essentially is to just stop porn; DO NOT CUT DOWN! I know it sounds like a good idea, but cutting down will actually further push you down the dark side of porn, because it unintentionally reinforce the "pleasure" of porn. I am saying this not just from online readings, but my own experience. My most darkest porn experiences, that which makes me feel less than human, that which truly makes me think its better that I live the rest of my life as a reclusive hermit, to cut off contact with everyone, to just leave God and be dammed forever, came after trying to cut down. As time goes on, these messed up "tastes" will diminish. The porn neurons will unravel, healing the mind, to the point that the slightest though of your past dark porn obsessions cause you less to become horny and more disgusted, embarrassed, and even scared (at least that's how I felt). As time continues, even random thoughts don't do anything more than just annoy you (again, that's how I felt).

Additional note - do not pay any attention to thoughts that might be plaguing your mind in regards to how you damaged yourself, what this says about me, how messed up you are, the random flashbacks of transwoman porn, etc, as they do not reflect or define you in anyways. I know how frustrating this can be to hear this, as it is damned hard to ignore them, as if it was an easy task, but trust me, you must learn to forgive and move past. I recommend mindfulness meditation to make peace with your mind. The Headspace app has a free trial and really helped me get started, but there's also tons of guided videos out there.

Last and final note --> your addiction to transwoman porn DOES NOT IN ANY WAY define you sexually. It is not an accurate depiction of your sexuality, says nothing about you. All it says is that you messed up and found a side of porn in a bad moment.