Hi i'm new here...

Welcone to the forum! And good luck in everything.

 

Hey, check out the reboot logs section. Maybe you would better like to open up to females going through the addiction. I can only say one day away from PMO is one day near to recovery. So keep it up !

 

Thats one of the regural problems here.
Well everybody here have own ways to battle this addiction. Best would be to stop before you even begin. So you need to start fighting agains all of that.

 

Is tough battle. Find a new hobby. Fight!

 

Hello, Michela!
If you're not into discovering details it's OK. As for me, I didn't dare to write even in my personal journal about my porn sessions.

Read more about porn addiction (like, your-brain-on-porn or materials from nofap) and behind the scenes of the porn industry. One time after reading about human-trafficking I tried to masturbate on porn and stopped because of disgust. It may be a good start for you. Also you can keep journal either online or here. The community is very supportive so I believe you'll be able to get over it

 

Hey welcome to the forum. Its nice to see another girl on here. I know how you feel, I used to have days were I would watch a lot of porn too. I know you said you don't want to talk with other girls, but if you want you can be my accountability partner. You can be as open with me as you want and we can help motivate each other.

 

Welcome to NoFap.

The reason why you can only get off on the bad stuff is because that's actually how porn addiction works. Its called desensitization. This process of desensitization is essentially how watching the same porn over and over again numbs the dopamine receptors in the brain, which makes you go into harder and harder genres. EVERY porn user goes through this, even in the smallest of ways. Think about it like this - there's a reason why nobody just ever watches the same porn clip their whole life; it just doesn't feel good anymore. Another way to see the desensitization process of porn is how nobody ever watches a porn video start to finish, but skips through, focusing on the body parts, scenarios, and positions they like. Excessive porn usage causes excessive porn boredom, leading one to cross the line of "safe porn" into more and more soul-damning material. Shock value and anxiety pump even more dopamine in the brain, which is why users actually go to that stuff in the first place. It has nothing to do with sexual tastes and latent desires, nothing with "repressed sexuality" or "fetishes that represent the real you" or other bullshit porn supporters say. It has everything to do with boredom, addition, thrill-seeking, and plain bad luck frankly.

Like I'll say it as bluntly as I can; you going into harder material, only being able to get off on bad stuff that demeaning to women, is not an inherent flaw in your character, has nothing to do with your sexuality, says nothing about you as a person. You just watched so much porn that you got bored, went hunting for darker material, and happened to find said darker material. What separates you from "casual" porn users that keep on the "safe side" of porn? Time. Given enough time, they too would have ended up like you have.

But don't lose hope! The desensitization process can be overcome. The key essentially is to just stop porn; DO NOT CUT DOWN! I know it sounds like a good idea, but cutting down will actually further push you down the dark side of porn, because it unintentionally reinforce the "pleasure" of porn. I am saying this not just from online readings, but my own experience. My most darkest porn experiences, that which makes me feel less than human, that which truly makes me think its better that I live the rest of my life as a reclusive hermit, to cut off contact with everyone, to just leave God and be dammed forever, came after trying to cut down. As time goes on, these messed up "tastes" will diminish. The porn neurons will unravel, healing the mind, to the point that the slightest though of your past dark porn obsessions cause you less to become horny and more disgusted, embarrassed, and even scared (at least that's how I felt). As time continues, even random thoughts don't do anything more than just annoy you (again, that's how I felt).

Additional note - do not pay any attention to thoughts that might be plaguing your mind in regards to how you damaged yourself, what this says about me, how messed up you are, the random flashbacks of hardcore porn, etc, as they do not reflect or define you in anyways. I know how frustrating this can be to hear this, as it is damned hard to ignore them, as if it was an easy task, but trust me, you must learn to forgive and move past. I recommend mindfulness meditation to make peace with your mind. The Headspace app has a free trial and really helped me get started, but there's also tons of guided videos out there.

Try reading Your Brain on Porn or SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION for porn (easy to find both online as pdf's). The second one in particular is an amazing resource.

 

Honestly, I hate to admit it, but I have also watched some crazy shit that I would never have dreamed of because of porn boredom. I've recently comes to terms with it. I denied it for many years and thought it was something I could easily stop watching, however, when I started NNN I realized that was not the case. I started NNN just to improve my self esteem, but now I've realized that there are many other issues that I need to overcome in order to end this addiction.

 

Welcome
Please, start studying carefully what's happening in your mind > https://oceanrecoverycentre.com/2016/07/the-ultimate-guide-to-overcoming-internet-porn-addiction/

First time without porn will be stressful , but if you resist , in some months you will feel reborn.

If the first times a person relapse easly, it's okay.
The streaks becomes even longer , day by day.
Don't porn anymore, it's better to struggle and at the last to relapse than to look at porn.
No more instagram pictures of models. No more erotic imagines , erotic stories or erotic asmr.
If you experience ''flatline'' and low libido , resist.
> https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/por...l-size-and-or-libido-are-decreasing-flatline/

Spoiler: About Relapse Prevention

We should improve in all area of our life, just being dissatisfied or stressed makes us relapse.

An effective weapon to overcome urges and thoughts : mindfulness.
The brain will try to win you and to get some triggers for the seek of dopamine. Resist

 

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