it's day 5 having urges

I know how hard it is. You’ve done the right thing by reaching out for help. Just remember that those urges will eventually pass. If you are able to do something different to get your mind off of it, that would help. There’s another thread that discusses all of the things you can do. Examples: exercise, find someone to talk to to not be by yourself, hold your breath for a bit.
One I do is a called a grounding exercise. Note 5 different colors around you, 5 different sounds, and 5 different textures. So it again with 4 each, then 3, 2, and 1 of each. It brings you back to reality.

 

When you feel urges go an take cold water shower or wash your head with cool water then sit down below fan and use lock me out app which help you to lock your phone when you feel urges ....
Hope