back to square one

hello,

a few days ago I was almost equaling the longest I have ever gone, which was 12 days. I had gone 11 days without pmo. but when the 12th day came, I don't know what it was, but it had triggered me, then I began to feel negativity which led me to give into temptation. I think what triggered me was something that caused me to isolate myself cos for the past 20 plus years I lived in isolation which gave way for me to walk down the wrong path. I think the daily check ins helped me stay the course. I just hate the reality of being controlled by something that has the ability with my admission, to keep me from being what I am to be in life.

I was watching that Sylvester Stallone movie Over The Top where that scene where him and the character Bo Hurley were in the middle of the championship match. I thought about that being the enemy of porn or anything else in life for that matter that can cause problems in our lives. Porn is a giant enemy, an enemy that we must overcome. If porn can be beaten by people then we can beat it ourselves.
I think for the sake of myself to keeping focused I am going to do my daily check ins. Even if I do not talk to anyone. This is an enemy I must defeat in my life before my life ends. I am going to have to do more than I have to defeat it, much more than what I am doing now.