I just want to talk to someone..

You are 23!!! And in college!!! Loads of people unfortunately never get the chance to get where you are, that is an accomplishment in itself!!! You are a great person!
It may seem tough right now but you WILL overcome it!!!

Please don’t do anything rash. I have felt similar feelings and still grapple with them now but I know that nothing will change if I killed myself. At least if I live, then there is always a chance that it will get better!! If I kill myself, there is no chance of that!! Same with you
I hope this helps

 

Just my two cents: you should not be doing this for the sake of getting a girlfriend. The goal should be to continually improve yourself and your life, for your own sake.
Girls will come eventually. Before that though, you have to make sure you've got your own life in order, meaning getting an education and a job, exercising regularly, taking care of your hygiene, getting some hobbies that you enjoy, staying in touch with friends and family, and of course quitting PMO etc. The girl is not there to give you meaning - you are simply living your life while letting her come along for the ride.

Also, about college: believe me when I say that it could be a heck of a lot worse. Some never make it to college in the first place. Nonetheless however, remember that when you finish, your college degree will not be worth any less than your classmates', no matter how much you struggle. I have also personally witnessed people finishing college degrees in subjects in which they (by their own accounts) have no natural talent at all. Some things might be hard, but you can finish anything given that you put in sufficient effort.

Things won't always be good, but they won't always be bad.

 

Hello,

I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait.

In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

 

Man...
At least you go to college. You know WHAT to do, WHERE to go. I'm stuck in 9 to 5 job that I hate, but hey... I'm slowly improving. Doesn't matter how lonely I am - I have different mindset than I used to, so yeah.. Don't let toxic mindset ruin your life.
Good luck!

 

Yes, the early twenties where my hardest time in life, even as parts of it were good, too - it gets better, I promise!!!

 

I suppose the question you have to ask yourself is:

Do you want to die?, or do you want the pain to go away?

Stay strong! Take it one day at a time (or 5 minutes at a time). Your future self will be proud of the strength you show today.

 

Dude!? Your 23.. You have soo much time for improving.. Im 28 and boy what would i give to go back to 23.. I know what your feeling right now.. You actually doing better than i am in life! I feel what your feeling everyday too bro.. Ive cried over this shit because it was unbearable. I know the dark side trust me. But we're in this together brotha. You msg me anytime u need support or someone to talk too. Im here for you.