Be The Master of Ourself

Hi, I decided to end my years of slaving myself to desire today. I have always have big dreams and imaginations, but always hindered by my lack of self control and discipline.

One of my biggest problem is porn, I have been consuming porn since highschool. The addiction started to grow exponentially when I got to college, and have freedom from parents, and High speed internet. It spiraled downward from that moment.

I think I missed a lot of opportunity during most of my 20s while I locked myself consuming porn a lot. My youth will never come back, and I have to make peace with that, and make sure that it will not happened again for the rest of my life

I am now 28, almost 29, Married, and fathered a 2 year old son. Most of the time I prefer porn over real sex with my loving wife. She knew my problem and we fight a lot about it. I always in denial or maybe delusional that the porn thing is just an entertainment, just like playing games, and watching movies, or listening to music. Maybe I tried to justify it, and truly believe it myself.

I watched videos and documentaries about heroin addiction, and see the horrible withdrawal of it. And now I can my addiction to it. Before I think porn is good if you have control over it and not being slaved by it, but in reality over the time it does make me a slave to it.

Just like heroin, a little is never good. I will try my best to stop from it today, cold turkey, forever. I might relapse in the future, but I will restart again and again, until I can liberate myself back from my desire.

I wish you all luck in your journey. And may we all be the master of ourselves

 

Great that you are here! Congratulations on your loving wife and your son. Stopping porn and masturbating is the right thing to do. It will repair your mind and your relationship with your family. Cold showering and sports will support this process. All the best to you!

 

Hi ArslanDane, welcome here. Wishing you loads of strength and good luck in overcoming you addiction. You can do it!

 

Thanks, I believe we can conquer ourselves.

 

yeah thanks, you too

 

Update on day no 2

Things are fine. I think a lot of my old habit. It's like just broken up with a toxic, but hot ex, it's just crossed my mind during the day. especially when I am alone in front of my computer. But I know I had to end the habit.

My wife and kid are out of town for weeks now, that's why I can have the deep thinking about my addiction. I'm gonna pick her up tomorrow. When she's around I think it's a lot easier for me.

 

Day 4
I don't feel much different than usual. I hope I can keep this up indefinately

 

Great! Keep going!

 

Day 5, no big urges for porn and fap. I got headaches this several days, can it be withdrawal symptoms? Or it's just headaches

 

I don't think it's a withdrawal symptom. Keep it up!

 

Day 6.
Getting off porn is like breaking up with toxic, yet hot GF. You know you gotta do it, but the memories of happy time haunt you.

I think I'm still good.

 

I feel you, but it's worth it!

 

I failed on day 7. Triggered by a post on 9gag, and it goes downhill from there. I scroll 9gag regularly and sometimes there's NSFW content passed by, even though you're not browsing NSFW section.

I'll start again on Monday

 

It happens to the best. I hope you didn't consume P. Learn from your mistake and keep going!