Sharing my story, as I just feel like doing it.

Hey guys. I'm from South America. Just wanted to come here for a quick visit to tell you I've made it out. I've made this account long ago when I was still struggling with my porn addiction. I'll share my two cents, because I feel like this will help me unbottle my feelings too.

I've been building up such addiction since my teenage times. It started with soft pornography, then these desires were slowly building up inside my head; I went deeper and deeper craving for more, ended up on hypno stuff and such, until I've finally started to connect the dots and understand that I was programmed to "program myself" due to lack of self-esteem and connection with my very own identity.

I had to re-visit my past selves, find my soul expressed in many words, writings; I had to completely evaluate my habits and moods, just in order to realise that the root of many of my emotional, existential and perhaps even spiritual problems was the pornography addiction.

I can't stress this enough, life does completely change when you throw that off and leave it in the past. You can repeat the pattern as much as you want, but as long as you're just convincing yourself that you're "trying" and not actually putting 100% of your effort into it, it's going to repeat itself. I also had to link it with many other crazy habits of mine (eating, drugs, and such). Now I'm a few months away from porn at all (I don't even think that counting the time is the best idea), and I don't feel like "feeding the darkness" within me anymore or craving the thrills I used to crave before.

Two things helped me a lot: finding a partner and being very communicative about my feelings. And uh, honestly, I didn't even have to mention my porn addiction. I've said a few things about it as a thing of the past. But it doesn't even affect my relationship at all, even the sexual connection. I feel like, the more I'm open to feel my partner's body in sex without fear, the more excited I get. And it's mutual.

Wish you all the best, specially those who are struggling with the same shit I was in. Believe in yourself, that's how it starts. Much love