I am writing this not to get and sympathy from anyone just to get it of my chest. This will be last post because after this i am going to erase this and will not stop masturbating or watching porn. Any good that was inside of me has shrivled up and died i have became botter and jaded and hate everyone and evrything in this world. People will use you cjeat on you break ypur heart lie to you and stab a knife in ypur again and again and again and i have finally snapped. I have given up on trying i have given up on finding love i have given up on people and hav3 given up on this world. I will spend my days working making money so i can jack of to how much money i have in the bank because materiale crap is pointless to me . What is importamt has always been human connectìoons but we live in a world where we have dest4oyed the only thong that was ever importamt in this world. I will just work read my books workout learn languages and fuck escorts i am happy with that life. Peace
NO! You cannot loose Hope. Without Hope you have nothing. You can Heal, you can live in a would world that is happy and full of life, you can do this. Read the right books, Find the right guidance the rest is easy.
Hope that you are feeling better. Everyone has to face difficult times and it seems that you are going through a lot. Material things, escorts and money will not make you happy. It will just temporarily numb the pain. There will always be people that will hurt you - knowing it helps to cope with it. There are also so many good people in our world but it is so easy to see all the bad, since there is so much of it. The fact that you are on this site - even to write one post tells that you have thought of bettering your life and being healthy sexually. Prostitutes will never make it better - only worse. True connection with humans does not come with payment. I truly hope that you will read this and that you are feeling better than when you first wrote the post. We all have times when we want to just give up - it is okay and normal. The fact that you feel that way makes me very sad since I can feel that pain aswell knowing how bad it can be. There is hope for everyone. It is always darkest before the dawn. These saying are cringe but there is a reason people keep saying them - cause they are true and an easy way to explain life. May God bless you.
