I am alone and without friends

Hey
You are not alone. I lost my friends due to this addiction. I am alone for past 2 or 3 years. I don't remember how does it feels to hang out with friends anymore. I also lost my academic year. Sometimes I'm sucidal as hell. I have not take a complete grip on this addiction, but I will keep moving ahead. I just want to tell u that life is not easy u have to make it easy and remember bad times won't last forever It will get better for sure.
Keep moving forward.

 

Get out there young bro and live your life!

“Remove sorrow from your heart, for childhood and youth are fleeting”. Ecclesiastes 11:10

 

I can relate my friend. I don't know if I've lost my friends directly due to PMO (I've lost opportunities to make new ones), but we're definitely not as close as we used to be, due to ideological differences, different ways of life and going about things, different goals, etc. It's not pretty to be alone, absolutely not, but it should be your wake up call as it was mine recently. I realized the existential dread inside me that leaves me feeling empty because I don't spend much time with my family, my close friends are falling apart, and I'm not that social of a guy at school, which makes it harder to get into relationships. I noticed the absolutely devastating pain that it makes me feel once I notice it, but more importantly the equally devastating way I'm dealing with it by using pornography. It's not right.
What I'd recommend doing is embracing it. Being alone means more time to be productive and away from distractions and other things of the world. Work on making a better version of yourself! Because if we're losers no one of earth will want us, which will only contribute to our loneliness and our further demise with PMO in an endless cycle. Take your loneliness as a wake up call to do greater things, and maybe things will change for us. That's kind of what I did at the beginning of the pandemic, but now I'm embracing this methodology and I think you should too my friend.

 

Take a cooking class.
Join a soccer team.
Show up to a board game meetup.
Go visit a monastery.
Try out a rock climbing gym.

Pick something and go do it. If you want to change your life, change it.

 

I know it's kind of cliché what I'm going to say, but try to start socializing, it won't help to be brooding what you've lost, past it, just identify the error, try to improve, even if it's 1% every day, look for what you're looking for, just try not to owe it goes for me.

 

The only friend I have is my parents, me and I.. the rest of my friend are all fake and jealous